Back in 2014, I was diagnosed with BPD. At first, I felt relief to finally have a list of words describing my impulses and emotional turmoil. I was suicidal and overdosed a few times. I stole little things in shops. I was angry. I was obsessively pursuing my ex, despite the fact that he was abusive. For me, this rejection meant death.
The thing is, other labels are attached to BPD: toxic, manipulative, angry, violent, uncontrollable... It goes on and on. Just the titles, Borderline/ Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, are stigmatising! Unstable? Disorder? Let's have a look at the symptoms. Mind writes, if you are suffering with BPD, you may:
When very stressed, sometimes you might:
Mind adds, on its website the reasons why the diagnoses of BPD is controversial.
"The term itself can be stigmatising,"
The lists above describes natural responses to highly stressful to traumatic events. They describe a nervous system that has been put under so much pressure, to survive whatever happened, that it cannot behave "appropriately" People aren't difficult, crazy, childish, behaving as victims: they are suffering! They feel lost and ashamed of their impulses, and then, when they need support the most, they are blamed for things they have very little control over.
"The stigma of being violent and dangerous is the worst for me. I am a caring and empathetic soul who would do anything for the people I love."
Anger is a natural response to being deeply hurt! As for the alleged violence, most hurt themselves more than they hurt others. Of course, violent/ unhealthy behaviour, if it happens needs to be addressed, but we can't shame people into recovery.
People are complicated. There are many social factors that can affect our capacity to cope, to relate to others and to respond to stress. For example:
Instead of focussing on "What is wrong with them." The question needs to be: "What happened to them? How can we help?" BPD isn't the cause: child abuse (or any other source of trauma and stress) is very often the cause! BPD is the effect.
Popular treatment for BPD are CBT/ MBT or Schema therapy. Those approaches only focus on the behaviour displayed and on correcting it. In other words, they only scratch the tip of the real issues: trauma and/ or stress. Behaviour can't truly be changed without revisiting the past events that trigger it. It is, at first, helpful and necessary to talk about abusive/ stressful events. They need to be released out. The step that seems to be missing though is the "feeling" step. We are intellectual beings, curious creatures but, feeling our deepest pain is terrifying! We need a caring witness to support us through this.
A lot of teenagers are diagnosed with BPD. Being a teenager is already difficult: the brain is re-wiring itself and hormones kick in. It is a time of change and change is scary. Young people are called irresponsible and stupid most of the time. Parents and society put them under so much pressure to achieve, to be popular, to plan their entire life out. Their sufferings are minimized constantly: "Oh, s/he is a teenager!!" Some don't have anyone to turn to: being abused at home AND bullied in school. (This is be a topic for another article.)
Adults, they are accused of being childish. As grown-ups, they should know better than letting their emotions take over! A lot of therapists assumed that patients have control over their mind. They don't always do: the behaviour and thought processes they are experiencing are emotional flashbacks! These are Inner Parts (Inner children) still trying to survive stressful and/ or abusive situation the best they can. These little inner people need validation, love, compassion and kindness, then, nobody will have to train them into thinking and behaving differently: they will naturally change/ evolve.
Later, as I felt better, thanks to the help of friends I have met during MBT group therapy, and as a result of my own intensive research, and then finding the right therapist, I rejected this diagnosis. As I read more and more about C-PTSD, I noticed this explained my experience better, as it clearly states the link to severe, ongoing childhood abuse. What really helped me was Mindful Self-Compassion, pioneered by Dr Kristin Neff, Ph.D. and her colleague, Dr Chris Germer, Ph. D. Of course, finding a trauma informed* therapist who will support you with compassion and kindness, is a plus. There is a real need for person centred and compassionate therapies, that are available and affordable for all!
Any thoughts and experienced you'd like to share?
Love and Light,
Sylvie
*What does "trauma informed" means. Here is another overused term! NAPAC explains it as follows:
"The key goal of trauma-informed practice is to raise awareness among all staff about the wide impact of trauma and to prevent the re-traumatisation of clients in service settings that are meant to support and assist healing." A trauma informed therapist acknowledges clients' suffering is a result of stressful and/ or abusive past events and relationships. They are here to support the client through flashbacks and over impacts of child abuse and neglect.
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What is it Life Coaching? What isn't Life Coaching?
It is a
partnership between a Life Coach and a client.
The coach facilitates a safe space and creates a positive rapport in order for the client to identify the inner blocks to their goals, hindering their happiness. Life Coaching helps the client to identify their own goals, to find their own solutions and achieve personal growth and transformation.
Life Coaching isn’t therapy. Although we acknowledge most inner blocks have their roots in the client’s past, we don’t dwell deep on it (this is best done in a therapeutic setting), but, with the client’s permission, we can explore how the "Then and There" affects the "Here and Now", and how the client can move forward, with Self-Compassion.
If I feel a client could benefit from ongoing therapy, I will advise they do so.
My approach is trauma informed. What is trauma? What does "Trauma Informed" means and how does it fit in with Life Coaching?
Trauma is the impact any significant event that has a lasting adverse effect on an individual’s happiness and well-being. The earlier and the longer lasting the stressful event in an individual’s life, the deeper the debilitating effect on a person’s happiness and well-being are.
“Trauma-informed coaching happens when the coach understands what trauma is, how it presents in the coaching room and how to respond. All this, within established coaching boundaries and contracts.”
Julia Vaughan Smith –
Coaching and Trauma
I have personal and professional experience of trauma and have a real understanding of its impact on mind, body and spirit.
What is Self-Compassion?
Self-compassion is extending compassion to oneself in instances of perceived inadequacy, failure, or general suffering.
Dr Kristin Neff,
PhD, has pioneered and defines self-compassion as being composed of three main components –
mindfulness, common humanity, and self-kindness.
Self-compassion is facing our deepest fears, outdated self-beliefs and our perceived inadequacies with loving kindness towards oneself, by learning to take the time to acknowledge when we are hurting (Mindfulness) , by reminding ourselves how suffering is part of the our human experience and we all experience it (to some degree), we aren’t as alone as we think we are (common Humanity ) and, finally, by taking time to sooth and to love ourselves though our pain as we would with a dear friend of ours (Self-Kindness).
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How does Self-Compassion and Trauma Informed Coaching work?
Oftentimes, our deepest fears, outdated self-beliefs and perceived inadequacies, are the very things blocking us from creating a happy, fulfilled life, and building happy relationships, tailored to our needs and aspirations.
These blocks have roots in our past, whether we are aware of this or not, and will impact our thoughts, feeling and our behaviour as well as on how we perceive ourselves and the world around us. The more severe a past trauma, such as Child Sexual Abuse, the stronger the blocks, which are survival/ defence mechanisms created in childhood in order to survive extreme violence and neglect.
They are also natural responses to abuse and neglect,
when the child really has no one to turn to.
In Coaching, there is an opportunity for the client to explore how the past has an impact on the present and focus on what the client can achieve NOW by becoming their own best friend through anything life throws at them and by having compassion for what they have been through. I will provide the space, the support and some tools (such as reading materials, meditations practice etc...), when necessary, to support clients on their journey.
The coaching process will be led by the client. It will be tailored to the client’s needs, with the client’s approval.
The coaching will be most effective if the client is willing and ready to commit
100% to their journey of self-discovery and healing. During Trauma Informed and Self- Compassion based Life Coaching sessions, the client will learn to approach their biggest blocks and find their inner resources of loving kindness and compassion towards themselves.
If you are interested and ready to transform your life, with self-compassion and tender loving care towards yourself, please, contact me for a FREE 30-minute Skype/ Zoom or phone assessment.
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I am looking forward to hearing from you,
Sylvie
Thank you for contacting me.
I will get back to you as soon as possible.
Kind Regards,
Sylvie
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Life Coaching sessions available from January 2023
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Full price
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£80. (8 to 10 sessions
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