Honouring the Darkness
As the cold winter darkness settles in, we all feel the need to slow down, and to cosy up inside until spring. Unfortunately, we live in a society that doesn't allow us to rest and to preserve our energy for warmer days. We are told to push through it all. We have artificial lights everywhere. There are no excuses for restful hibernation. More and more people are diagnosed with SAD and are given medication to ride it out when, really, the remedy is for human beings to return to their natural rhythm and cycle, linked to Mother Earth's. Winter is a time of retreat, after months of hard labour.
In ancient matriarchal civilisations, the Darkness of Life, of winter, was honoured and celebrated. The Darkness symbolised the Goddess, the New Moon, ,the sacred womb - the Yoni, the Void - the sacred creative space. Early Christians demonized it. The Darkness became synonymous of the Devil, Hell, a place of Sin. The opposite of their God's Light, to avoid at all costs.
Today, with the well established "toxic positivity" we are encouraged to only focus on the Light. Darkness is associated with natural emotions such as sadness, anger, despair ECT - is to be reframed, rejected, ignored. It is called being negative to talk about adverse experiences.
Some of us, who have experienced deep childhood trauma are often shamed for experiencing strong emotions - listed above. We are advised to focus on the positive, to look at the bright side. This gives us the message our suffering isn't valid. Lots of individuals want us to be inspiring heroes. Nobody wants victims. They want us to recover with a big grateful smile on our faces and assumed that , when we feel everything but happiness, we are probably not trying hard enough to find that silver lining. Some go to the extend of mentioning "Trauma Growth" a list of benefits deriving from childhood trauma. There is nothing positive about being used and abused as a child. NOTHING. We grow, experience joy and fulfilment DESPITE our traumatic experiences, not because of them. We heal if we are lucky to have a loving and understanding support network, in a world obsessed with quick happy endings.
For many years, being a member of a popular religious organisation, I tried so very hard to be positive, to smile through everything and to feel gratitude for the hardships I suffered as a child, because I was told they made me who I was. It went as far as being encouraged to feel gratitude towards my abusers as they were my teachers. My sadness, my anxiety and depression were called "fundamental darkness", or coming from a negative Ego, to be challenged, to be transformed and to chant away. When this didn't work I was blaming myself for not trying hard enough. It made me feel as if something was deeply wrong with me.
A year of Gestalt trauma therapy and "practicing" Self- Compassion and learning from Internal Family System (IFS), really changed my point of view: I now know, my sadness, depression ECT... aren't fundamental darkness, or from an evil Ego: they are emotional flashbacks, from Inner Parts who are suffering, whose experiences need validating. Inner Children who need the love and support they never experienced growing up. There are no bad parts, bad emotions or feelings. I've learned to turn towards my inner Darkness with love and compassion. I experience my most difficult days as opportunities to love and support myself, not as failures on my part. It was by finally acknowledging and accepting my deep seated desire to die - a direct result of being an unwanted child and experiencing rejection and neglect - that I was able to find a joyful desire to live.
This year, as I opened myself up to the Sacred Feminine/ the Inner Goddess, I've felt the pull to explore Her Darkness. (Reading Burning Woman, by Lucy H. Pearce and Shakti Woman by Vicki Noble, enabled me to reclaim myself). I went from experiencing darkness filed with real life monsters to experiencing the loving, soothing and weightless darkness of the Universe, through mediations, and visions. I saw myself floating in Space, with the stars and the Moon, feeling connected to everything and everyone, everywhere. I felt as if I was getting a big hug from the Universe.
As the end of 2022 approaches, take loving care of yourself in the cold wintry days. Times are hard with "the Cost of Living" (in the UK) and the increasing poverty settling in. It is understandable to feel rather low, no matter how many Christmas lights surround us. It is by acknowledging both challenges - darkness and, the joy - the light, that we find hope, compassion and love for ourselves and for those around us.
Sylvie
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What is it Life Coaching? What isn't Life Coaching?
It is a
partnership between a Life Coach and a client.
The coach facilitates a safe space and creates a positive rapport in order for the client to identify the inner blocks to their goals, hindering their happiness. Life Coaching helps the client to identify their own goals, to find their own solutions and achieve personal growth and transformation.
Life Coaching isn’t therapy. Although we acknowledge most inner blocks have their roots in the client’s past, we don’t dwell deep on it (this is best done in a therapeutic setting), but, with the client’s permission, we can explore how the "Then and There" affects the "Here and Now", and how the client can move forward, with Self-Compassion.
If I feel a client could benefit from ongoing therapy, I will advise they do so.
My approach is trauma informed. What is trauma? What does "Trauma Informed" means and how does it fit in with Life Coaching?
Trauma is the impact any significant event that has a lasting adverse effect on an individual’s happiness and well-being. The earlier and the longer lasting the stressful event in an individual’s life, the deeper the debilitating effect on a person’s happiness and well-being are.
“Trauma-informed coaching happens when the coach understands what trauma is, how it presents in the coaching room and how to respond. All this, within established coaching boundaries and contracts.”
Julia Vaughan Smith –
Coaching and Trauma
I have personal and professional experience of trauma and have a real understanding of its impact on mind, body and spirit.
What is Self-Compassion?
Self-compassion is extending compassion to oneself in instances of perceived inadequacy, failure, or general suffering.
Dr Kristin Neff,
PhD, has pioneered and defines self-compassion as being composed of three main components –
mindfulness, common humanity, and self-kindness.
Self-compassion is facing our deepest fears, outdated self-beliefs and our perceived inadequacies with loving kindness towards oneself, by learning to take the time to acknowledge when we are hurting (Mindfulness) , by reminding ourselves how suffering is part of the our human experience and we all experience it (to some degree), we aren’t as alone as we think we are (common Humanity ) and, finally, by taking time to sooth and to love ourselves though our pain as we would with a dear friend of ours (Self-Kindness).
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How does Self-Compassion and Trauma Informed Coaching work?
Oftentimes, our deepest fears, outdated self-beliefs and perceived inadequacies, are the very things blocking us from creating a happy, fulfilled life, and building happy relationships, tailored to our needs and aspirations.
These blocks have roots in our past, whether we are aware of this or not, and will impact our thoughts, feeling and our behaviour as well as on how we perceive ourselves and the world around us. The more severe a past trauma, such as Child Sexual Abuse, the stronger the blocks, which are survival/ defence mechanisms created in childhood in order to survive extreme violence and neglect.
They are also natural responses to abuse and neglect,
when the child really has no one to turn to.
In Coaching, there is an opportunity for the client to explore how the past has an impact on the present and focus on what the client can achieve NOW by becoming their own best friend through anything life throws at them and by having compassion for what they have been through. I will provide the space, the support and some tools (such as reading materials, meditations practice etc...), when necessary, to support clients on their journey.
The coaching process will be led by the client. It will be tailored to the client’s needs, with the client’s approval.
The coaching will be most effective if the client is willing and ready to commit
100% to their journey of self-discovery and healing. During Trauma Informed and Self- Compassion based Life Coaching sessions, the client will learn to approach their biggest blocks and find their inner resources of loving kindness and compassion towards themselves.
If you are interested and ready to transform your life, with self-compassion and tender loving care towards yourself, please, contact me for a FREE 30-minute Skype/ Zoom or phone assessment.
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I am looking forward to hearing from you,
Sylvie
Thank you for contacting me.
I will get back to you as soon as possible.
Kind Regards,
Sylvie
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For those who would prefer to have their Life Coaching sessions, remotely, I use Zoom and Microsoft Team.
Venues for face-to-face sessions
TBC
Life Coaching sessions available from January 2023
My Fees
- 30 Minutes Skype/ Zoom or phone
assessment:
FREE
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Full price
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£80. (8 to 10 sessions
in total.)
-Concession prices: £60 (8 to 10 sessions in total.)
If you are experiencing financial hardship, such as unemployment or long-term disability, I offer limited places on concession fees. Please, contact me to discuss.
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